So here I am, not having written a single word in my stories for a while now. I am also doing a rewrite of short story that I did finish writing a while ago. I felt that rewrite was needed, since what I had written was not what I needed to write. While I do not know how long the rewrite is going to take place, it is going to take place.
Such as things go for me. I am not a fast writer, since I like to think about the details of my stories, since the devil is in the detail is the saying. It takes me a great deal of time to think about what I am going to write next, even if I rewrite it at later time.
So, what is keeping me from writing, it is several things. First off, it is the fact I am now struggling with money. It is not because I have so much bills, I don’t. It is because I have so low income and there is always certain level of payment that I have to make. Like rent, electricity, water and so on. It is so bad that I hardly have any money to buy food, I thank for that I live not far from Germany. Where I can buy food cheaper than in Denmark.
This problem, along with the worries constant money worries that I have make it hard for me to write a story. In fact, it makes it hard for me to write anything of value this days. That is bad, since writing increases my income in the end. So I am now in some type of catch-22 status and I am unsure when I am going to get out of it. I might only get out of this the hard way, and that is not going to be easy for me. For me, peace of mind is something that I need in order to write. I am not saying I need trouble free life, but having worries ruining my day or month is not something that works for me when it comes to writing.
Creating a story is a long progress, for everyone who starts a writing career. Many people do not understand this, why I do not know. While I am slowly working on my stories, I plan on starting other types of books. Those books are not fictional so they are easier to work with as such. Many of them are just going to be around my opinion on people, events and other things. I do not know if it is going to solve my money problems, it might do so. It depends on if people are going to buy those books or not. They might not do so and if nothing is sold, I do not get any income at all. That is what being writer is about.
Whatever the case, I am just going adjust to it. That might not be easy, far from it. So far, so good as they say. Even if I can hardly afford any food this month, this has happened for several months now so I should be used to it. But I can’t say it is a compatible idea knowing that I am so broke that I can hardly afford paying for food. This is also the price I pay being from Iceland since my problems have its origins in bad economic policies in Iceland. But that is something I am going to write a book about soon, people in other countries need to know what is actually happenin in Iceland. At least my view on it and opinion.
There is one thing that I have learned since I figured out that I wanted to be a writer and actually started to write for real. Creation process is not a direct line, it has its twist, turns and failures. While I do not know when I am going to publish my first ebook and my first printed book in the category of fictional books. I know it is going to happen one day, it is however going to take some time for me until I finish my first fictional book. I am going to publish other books earlier, since they are less work and do not involve creating a story, since I have opinion already formed and I am used to write my opinion down in blog posts already. Both in Icelandic and English.
This is my story on writing books so far. It is not long or interesting. What I have written so far mostly short stories in Icelandic. I have not written many stories in English, that is going to change in next few years to months as shift my focus to writing more English stories, rather than Icelandic stories.